#and GO HOME bc id feel bad just leaving when shits still fucked (but obvi much nicer bc this is kris shes very polite)

[hemorrhoidbabe69]

Pokemon ive heard of em

[textsacc]

i can write you another letter right?

im sorry. i can't sleep. i've been trying to but i just keep spiraling back to missing you. and that i should've left a text or something instead of leaving you in the dark. that i never wanted you to feel alone, and god forbid you wake up missing me and go to sleep doing the exact same thing.

fuck that shit bro. 🥺 i actually miss you too much now. i never want you to feel like you haven't had enough of me yet. because i want to always be there for you. and it sucks bc i wasn't and i just keep overthinking it for myself -- yes ik you're probably gonna be like its okay you dont have to stay up or let me know for me but -- i want to???? i want to really bad. i want to beam you my thoughts whenever im super sleepy but ik if you were able to do the same i'd bother you nonstop and struggle between falling asleep and never getting to sleep at all.

it doesnt even work super well, bc when i was thinking abt beaming thoughts to you earlier today, it was when i was horny and i was hoping you'd never hear me in my mind bc you'd just get distracted by how quickly my mind changes from 'i dont wanna do anything im so tired i gotta plan out what to do for homework tomorrow' to 'thaddea~ i like it when you grab my ass so hard in the way it spreads my pussy 🥺🥺🥺 want you in me so bad' like even i had whiplash over typing that jn and i mean it when i say i do switch thoughts like that and omg never hear them pls 🤦‍♀️

but also im. still really sorry ig. because i feel like id let you down? and ik its not that big a deal to you but it sure does for me. like i never want you to feel lonely ig. i wanna be by your side whenever i can. and yes to me even if im sleepy as hell over 48 hours of sleep debt or w/e i still Can^tm be by your side. and i feel guilty that i wasnt. and ik this is weird but thats how much you mean to me. and ik liking you should be an act thats done under taking care of myself too but. idk. idw if its with you somehow, in a selfish way ig. i wanna serve you first as my utmost priority. we can talk about feeding me later or w/e.

hjgbfkfhifhjfhfjfhkfjgkf i feel bad for saying that too bc idw you to worry abt me either aaaaaaaaaaa

um if you wake up n see this i have some tea??????? proj work b cray cray in dgp. and also like i wrote this bc my yearning mixed up w my sad emotions and ig if above was the sad emotions then heres the part of yearning

so when sab n i were walking around ikea there was a playlist on and one of the songs i had in my playlist for you was on too. and immediately i went head empty and what awful timing too bc we were looking at a showroom for a family and i was thinking too hard abt wanting you to be my husband or however the song goes n we'd have a dining room with multiple chairs (for kids ig) and like. yeah thank god sab was distracted by all the nice cups on display 💀💀💀💀💀doesnt help i was also busy singing the song under my breath while being head empty ig

oh and otw out we were looking ay cookware bc we had to go through the section to leave n sab was wishing she had a reason to buy cookware???? and i rly wanted to be like same n think abt being domestic w you n visiting ikea n getting cookware w you for our new home or w/e 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 but we dont have a home lmao and theres no reason for us to share cookware either ig except to save costs bc its not like we're married or w/e (haha jk unless? @ govt pls sponsor our hdb more) and if i thought too hard abt cookware id drop the comedy act w sab in the end so i didnt think too hard abt it at the time on purpose

and and and sab went to tamp w me to pick up stuff aft our ikea visit????? and when we were getting boost juice (her request not mine) i was mentioning to her where you waited for us the other day like im still not over it and that i definitely do not have a crush on you or anything. obvi not. idk i was even joking abt it on the way there being like 'haha random info you definitely do not need to know about but i will tell you bc idk haha' mmgjfhdkfhdkhfkfjf and that was when you were texting me that you were at jewel do you rmb 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 jk you dont have to

(and like also is it bad that i kinda do wanna be domestic w you fhjfkfkfhf like ik you said its my choice but its also my choice to wanna serve you well right 🥺 and like work fucking sucks and has its own hot bed of problems but at least with you, my sweet angel, my honey, my darling, as a ux designer i would know and study you better bc you're always around me as my subject of focus? so like. id cater to you better just on observation alone. and like i wanna make sure you're at your tippy top whenever you head out to work too? n be comforted by the fact that someone capable is taking care of your living space n working hard on your behalf too? with tangible visible outcomes? and idk if you wanna throw in some kids for that horny fantasy too i wouldn't mind because yeah i do wanna be kept home by you and your cock too big for my pussy and the loads you keep giving unto me but thata neither here nor there and as you can see im obviously missing the point of this paragraph now)

um where was i going w this i dont rmb

i like you a lot thaddea! and i cant sleep bc im missing you too much. and i want you to fuck me senseless. and also i'm really sorry that i didn't manage to tell you abt me being sleepy or catch you on time to talk to you earlier.

yknow i bgjfhfjhf i started crying when i realized i didnt manage to ask you abt your day??? fhjfngjfn sorry ik it sounds rly dumb n weird but-- idk i keep wanting to chalk it up to 'thats how much you mean to me and my day' but i also dw look so clingy and so co-dependent. like yeah, maybe i can't operate w/o you in my life bc you're my routine, one of the only things keeping me grounded. that's bad, right? am i supposed to follow this up with 'so what'?

hfjfjfj idk. i wanna sleep soon, so i can wake up to you and give you all the affection i know you deserve. and also that i can talk to you sooner and cuddle with you earlier bc ik while sundays are difficult for you to reply to me in the morning, we still have our nightly routines right? that'll still come earlier if i just sleep n make time go by faster.

i miss you thaddy. 🥺 i do mean it though, can you forgive me for falling asleep on you? you can brag abt it to everyone ig. idm. 😤 if its you, i dont think i'll ever mind. i like you so much. 🥺

okay im gonna sleeb now fr this time or at least try to ig lord knows i suck at sleeping so haha gnight daddy rest well ❤